Character flaw..

Yup iam a women with so many character flaws in my love relationship.. iam a women who is extremely selfish when it comes to my partner and my relationship..

Every women don’t expose their orginal attitude or character to their love , they adjust their charcater hide their emotions, their emotions are on their control… Such womens are called well charactered girl and women like me who are very transparent and straight forward in their attitude and character are called charactered flawed women, bad charactered women and all that..

Iam bad tempered… I don’t like when  he hang around with his friends… I hate when he spends too much time in entertainments…. I really get a bad temper when he give more importants to his family… I don’t appreciate when he care too much for others …i get angry when his phone line is busy.. i feel irritated when he is online and not sending me atleast a blank text…i cant accept the fact that he replaces my place with something or someone else even its for few seconds.. All these I’s may sound selfish but all these I’s are because i love him.. i love him more than any one and i know it….

When he choosed to be mine then he’s mine …. For him my love might sound like selfishness.. sometimes for him i may sound like a harmful person because character flaw is a mental illness itseems… what ever it is i love him and i assure him with a never ending love… I promise him that i love him to the fullest without a single break until my last breath…

Finally, my selfish love may be addressed as a character flaw but for me and women like me its our way of emotion.. we are irritating, sometimes we make you feel , it sucks ! but our love is so pure and true..we need a person who accepts all our character flaws and we don’t really feel good when the person we love, lies or hides from us instead of accepting us just because we hold a character flaw….

                                             – SUJA SAM.

A poem.

Never ever i dreamed that you’ll be unto me this much…

You have charred inside my heart so strong that even a death dark cannot take away your position…

My love for you is so strong , it cannot be explained in voice nor words..

Every single day, every single second my inner soul sings your name…

There is no better wakeup start that the rhyme of your sweet voice….

Your manly smile is my secret treatment of stress releif..

Your enchanting charisma lights up my glory.. 

Your single sight cleans up and purifies my soul…

You , you, and you its one and only you SAM…!!

You know what without you iam nothing, nothing at  all sam..!! 

– SUJA SAM.

Prostitute..!!

PROSTITUTE – this is a very strong and a common word used to describe and damage the reputation of a women… No matter how good character that women holds , if that women is hated by people she’ll be given this title…

The very easy and priceless hashtag that a women gets without any special effort is the hashtag #prostitute…

If a women dress up the way she likes, shows up some off her skin, lets her hair loose, wears a bold colour lipstick, puts on some kajal to add up some glitters to her attitude, if she’s straight forward, speaks out whats on her mind, laughs out lowdly, has a no of male friends, posts maximum no of selfiees.. look what happens that hashtag follows up either before her name or behind her name…

Fed up with this so called norm.. # hashtaaging a women with the word prostitute.. this word deeply hurts a women when she’s been addressed by this way…  

when i think upon this word it kindled my inner voice, the best way to describe the inner voice is its a lovable women’s heart actually… 

Prostitute is a name given to women who is a sex worker, a women who chooses sex as her proffession.. being a women i questioned myself is being a sex worker a easy task ? and i answered to myself wholeheartedly… Ahhhh the answer was a BIG NO.. it is not at all possible easy task as how easyily people use the word to describe their hate against a women…!! 

Being in sexual intercourse with a person we love itself needs a lot of time , commitment, mind set, love and affection and offcourse some passion… Being a sex worker , a women has to indulge herself straightway in sex with a unknown person where her mindset, health, commitment and love is not valued nor has a place at all… She is a women too .. she has a heart… Physical touch will surely create a affection in her heart for that person cause she’s a human being too… She also crave for love… But what fate has made her to choose sex as her proffession, all her love, affection, commitments , mindset and health are replaced by papers and coins – MONEY. 

A prosritute kills her heart , her emotions and her body every day… but nobody holds note of her pain… As for me prostitute is not a filthy hashtag here then.. i see a prostitute as a women with a very very strongest heart.. a magical creation of god who can manage and control her emotions according to her will and wish… 

According to hindhu mythologies and as for my knowledge a hindhu godesses has a very strong powerful soul how far she has been tried to be taken down by evil at the end she’ll rise up and save the universe.. iam seeing the very same will power in the # hashtag PROSTITUTE… How manytimes a prostitutes emotions are killed they rises up again with a bold smiling face…!! Prostitutes are a strongest souls..!!

A kind request to all those who are reading my post.. The saddest truth is prostitue hashtag is mostly throwned on a women by a women more than a male.. here then think once before using the word prostitute for a wrong addressing… Remeber the pain of the sex workers and how strong their will power is..!! Stop seeing them negatively and start seeing their strength and positivity..!!

                                                       – SUJA SAM.

        

Trust

The true success of a relationship depends on the strength of the trust in that relationship…it is very very difficult for a person to bring up trust on them that too its difficult for men to bring trust on a womens heart… 

But once a women starts to trust a guy i’m damn sure nobody can’t break the trust other than the very same guy she trusts…

Trust can’t be build intentionally.. it has to happen automatically in a relationship.. where there is a trust, there is a very strong bond that lasts forever and ever…!!!

But once the trust is shaken, how much ever we love that person there will be pin hole sized doubt on them….we sometimes cheat ourselves saying i trust him/her unconditionally…. But that’s really really a tough task to work upon…. Its very difficult to mend our heart to trust the love again…

Once a flower garland is dried it can’t decorate a god’s feet…. It cant be offered to anyone either…!! Sameway broken trust can’t be replaced with a strong trust in love or relationship whatsoever…. !!!

If you break a trust of the person who loves you unconditionally and if you get a chance from the same person…their love for you is immense and unshaken… Love that person whole heartedly no matter what you gain in your relationship at the end of your life you’ll have a never ending love which we human beings long for…!!

                                                – SUJA SAM .

Your strongly making me strong…

Everyone will have a very difficult situation in a particular phase of life’s journey…. Life’s path is full of ups and downs it depends on how we cross it with ability and support… A good and strong support is the secret will power for our heart… Our journey of life becomes adventurous and peaceful on who’s hands we catch for a support…!!! 

Iam in such a difficult phase of life right now… I realized support doesn’t mean that person helps us financially… Support merely relies on the care, concern and love from our beloved…

Every single phone call from SAM makes me strong… Each and every caring words makes my day bright… A single word of text brings broad smile on my face… infact SAM is the key of my strenght…

Being with positive people will drive us to positivity that too we are lucky if we get a partner who is full of positivity… SAM is such a positive personality of my life… These hard times makes me strongly weak…  How ever strongly i become weak a few seconds of conversation with SAM makes me strongly bold… Its SAM’s positivity that influences my heart to be stronger…!!!

Falling in love with your positivity SAM… Love you SAM… Your a wonderful positive creativity of GOD..!! Growing and learning with your support…!!!

                                                       – SUJA SAM.

A special moment..

A girl is lucky if she gets a partner who is supportive and relishes your victory has his victory and values your success.. Iam lucky by this way… 

This is very special moment of my life… I have passed all the subjects in my first year UG…My first victory after a long time with your guidence SAM….Without you i would have not achieved it SAM….

Really SAM love you for the full fletched love and endless support… I really really miss you at this moment sam…you are not near me to celebrate this victory…!! Love you SAM..

                                                       – SUJA SAM.

Madurai..

Every lovers and couples will surely have a first long trip and that trip are very very close to their hearts…!! Usually everybodys place of long trips would be either to goa, ooty , banglore, kodaikanal etc etc romantic places but our first long trip is different..!!

our first long trip was to the THOONGA NAGARAM MADURAI… Madurai always close to our hearts…i love to explore new cities but i have some fears exploring..
But SAM accompained me right from boarding till returning… Our first visit there togather… After our 10 th std tour this is the first long bus travel we were going togather…!!

Our exploring madurai started from paandi kovil..such an auspicious temple and thats the root place for our love.. how will i forget SAM’s looks when i draped saree…  I have been in many costumes but i have never seen sam looking at me in a naughty way but saree made wonders… Its a secret saree sentiment of we south indian womens actually…!!

There is no great gift than our love getting a bunch of flower for a sentimental girl like me..!! And yaahh i was gazzing myself in the mirror when SAM kept those flowers on my hair…. No ornament was special to me than those flower garlands that you got me sam…

Meenakshi amman temple, that grand palace.. its still haunted in my mind… our love took a different level.. a bold step in our love indeed…  You placed the sacred holy kungumam on my forehead… That spotaneous precious momments… Again a hindu girl’s sentiment… I long for those momments again…!!

And finally that tasty tasty jigirthanda, my first encounter with that and i have fallen in love with jigirthanda at the first sight itself… I think i have fallen in love with that jigirthanda because you gave me after tasting it…!! 

A new place… A new adventure… And the company of our love…!! That would be life fulffiling moments…!! And you gave me such cherishing moments love  you SAM..!!