Character flaw..

Yup iam a women with so many character flaws in my love relationship.. iam a women who is extremely selfish when it comes to my partner and my relationship..

Every women don’t expose their orginal attitude or character to their love , they adjust their charcater hide their emotions, their emotions are on their control… Such womens are called well charactered girl and women like me who are very transparent and straight forward in their attitude and character are called charactered flawed women, bad charactered women and all that..

Iam bad tempered… I don’t like when  he hang around with his friends… I hate when he spends too much time in entertainments…. I really get a bad temper when he give more importants to his family… I don’t appreciate when he care too much for others …i get angry when his phone line is busy.. i feel irritated when he is online and not sending me atleast a blank text…i cant accept the fact that he replaces my place with something or someone else even its for few seconds.. All these I’s may sound selfish but all these I’s are because i love him.. i love him more than any one and i know it….

When he choosed to be mine then he’s mine …. For him my love might sound like selfishness.. sometimes for him i may sound like a harmful person because character flaw is a mental illness itseems… what ever it is i love him and i assure him with a never ending love… I promise him that i love him to the fullest without a single break until my last breath…

Finally, my selfish love may be addressed as a character flaw but for me and women like me its our way of emotion.. we are irritating, sometimes we make you feel , it sucks ! but our love is so pure and true..we need a person who accepts all our character flaws and we don’t really feel good when the person we love, lies or hides from us instead of accepting us just because we hold a character flaw….

                                             – SUJA SAM.

A poem.

Never ever i dreamed that you’ll be unto me this much…

You have charred inside my heart so strong that even a death dark cannot take away your position…

My love for you is so strong , it cannot be explained in voice nor words..

Every single day, every single second my inner soul sings your name…

There is no better wakeup start that the rhyme of your sweet voice….

Your manly smile is my secret treatment of stress releif..

Your enchanting charisma lights up my glory.. 

Your single sight cleans up and purifies my soul…

You , you, and you its one and only you SAM…!!

You know what without you iam nothing, nothing at  all sam..!! 

– SUJA SAM.

Trust

The true success of a relationship depends on the strength of the trust in that relationship…it is very very difficult for a person to bring up trust on them that too its difficult for men to bring trust on a womens heart… 

But once a women starts to trust a guy i’m damn sure nobody can’t break the trust other than the very same guy she trusts…

Trust can’t be build intentionally.. it has to happen automatically in a relationship.. where there is a trust, there is a very strong bond that lasts forever and ever…!!!

But once the trust is shaken, how much ever we love that person there will be pin hole sized doubt on them….we sometimes cheat ourselves saying i trust him/her unconditionally…. But that’s really really a tough task to work upon…. Its very difficult to mend our heart to trust the love again…

Once a flower garland is dried it can’t decorate a god’s feet…. It cant be offered to anyone either…!! Sameway broken trust can’t be replaced with a strong trust in love or relationship whatsoever…. !!!

If you break a trust of the person who loves you unconditionally and if you get a chance from the same person…their love for you is immense and unshaken… Love that person whole heartedly no matter what you gain in your relationship at the end of your life you’ll have a never ending love which we human beings long for…!!

                                                – SUJA SAM .

Your strongly making me strong…

Everyone will have a very difficult situation in a particular phase of life’s journey…. Life’s path is full of ups and downs it depends on how we cross it with ability and support… A good and strong support is the secret will power for our heart… Our journey of life becomes adventurous and peaceful on who’s hands we catch for a support…!!! 

Iam in such a difficult phase of life right now… I realized support doesn’t mean that person helps us financially… Support merely relies on the care, concern and love from our beloved…

Every single phone call from SAM makes me strong… Each and every caring words makes my day bright… A single word of text brings broad smile on my face… infact SAM is the key of my strenght…

Being with positive people will drive us to positivity that too we are lucky if we get a partner who is full of positivity… SAM is such a positive personality of my life… These hard times makes me strongly weak…  How ever strongly i become weak a few seconds of conversation with SAM makes me strongly bold… Its SAM’s positivity that influences my heart to be stronger…!!!

Falling in love with your positivity SAM… Love you SAM… Your a wonderful positive creativity of GOD..!! Growing and learning with your support…!!!

                                                       – SUJA SAM.

A special moment..

A girl is lucky if she gets a partner who is supportive and relishes your victory has his victory and values your success.. Iam lucky by this way… 

This is very special moment of my life… I have passed all the subjects in my first year UG…My first victory after a long time with your guidence SAM….Without you i would have not achieved it SAM….

Really SAM love you for the full fletched love and endless support… I really really miss you at this moment sam…you are not near me to celebrate this victory…!! Love you SAM..

                                                       – SUJA SAM.

Madurai..

Every lovers and couples will surely have a first long trip and that trip are very very close to their hearts…!! Usually everybodys place of long trips would be either to goa, ooty , banglore, kodaikanal etc etc romantic places but our first long trip is different..!!

our first long trip was to the THOONGA NAGARAM MADURAI… Madurai always close to our hearts…i love to explore new cities but i have some fears exploring..
But SAM accompained me right from boarding till returning… Our first visit there togather… After our 10 th std tour this is the first long bus travel we were going togather…!!

Our exploring madurai started from paandi kovil..such an auspicious temple and thats the root place for our love.. how will i forget SAM’s looks when i draped saree…  I have been in many costumes but i have never seen sam looking at me in a naughty way but saree made wonders… Its a secret saree sentiment of we south indian womens actually…!!

There is no great gift than our love getting a bunch of flower for a sentimental girl like me..!! And yaahh i was gazzing myself in the mirror when SAM kept those flowers on my hair…. No ornament was special to me than those flower garlands that you got me sam…

Meenakshi amman temple, that grand palace.. its still haunted in my mind… our love took a different level.. a bold step in our love indeed…  You placed the sacred holy kungumam on my forehead… That spotaneous precious momments… Again a hindu girl’s sentiment… I long for those momments again…!!

And finally that tasty tasty jigirthanda, my first encounter with that and i have fallen in love with jigirthanda at the first sight itself… I think i have fallen in love with that jigirthanda because you gave me after tasting it…!! 

A new place… A new adventure… And the company of our love…!! That would be life fulffiling moments…!! And you gave me such cherishing moments love  you SAM..!!

The man’s positivity…

A husband is not just a relation it is he who stands like a pillar for his girl..it is only by his support a women guides rest of her family in a peaceful path..if a husband (i.e) the pillar collapse then the whole family will be shattered…!! 

There is a famous saying behind every successfull men there is a women , i do agree with it but BEHIND EVERY SUCCESSFULL RELATIONSHIP AND A PEACEFULL FAMILY THERE IS A MAN..!! HIS SILENT SACRFICES, HIDDEN PAINS AND ABSOLUTE ADJUTMENTS…!!

If a boy doesn’t support a girl in the relationship, however strong the girl is somehow the relationship’s base will be shaken…if a boy thinks he will build the relationship up above the sky.. but, if he thinks to collapse, he’ll dump it deep inside the ground..it is not that girls are incapable but a BOY’s support for a girl will make wonders..!!

SAM’s support for me had wonders in my life..To me sam holding my hand itself is a great support and i love that…!! whenever he hold my hands all my stress , depression and pain runs away like a theif running away from getting cought..!! That too when he holds my hand tight a positive love vibration will pass all over my body, automatically all my fear will run and jump out of my window pane…!! Funny aint it !! But it’s true.. From sam’s support only i learnt the positivity of a male’s support for a girl…and you are lucky if you get such a support..!!!

                                                              – SUJA SAM.

                   

Understanding..

Understanding is equally imporatant to trust as to be successful in our relationship… Understanding the person we love is a very difficult task indeed…!! More than a possesive partner a understanding partner is the one that every human beings want and long for….

There is a major difference between really understanding the person we love and really mean it, and pretending that i have understood him/her very well and i know everything about him/her, like me let he/she understand me by themself.. this is merely a over confidence and an foolish attitude… How can a person understand what is running in his/her heart and mind without they opening their mouth and share it…!! 

This is type of attitude is disgusting actually… And i was such an disgusting person too.. i was actually fooling myself that i know everything about my SAM and i have understood him very well..but it was actually not so… I had been pretending myself.. sameway , i wanted my love to understand everything running on my mind..i wanted him to read my silence..how foolish was i!! My SAM actually the one who pointed my mistake and pulled me out of this foolishness ..!! Yes , he made me understand him very well now..he spoke with me and made me to realize how idiotic i was ….how stupid my attitude was.. but every single person cant get a partner like my SAM.. to cuddle you and point your mistake, correct it and stay with you…(im lucky to have u SAM) ..

So what i learned from my love…

nobody in this world cant read anybodys mind or heart eventhough we love someone truly…!! Love and understanding are different paths..when both the paths join to be a single lane we end up in a successful relationship…!!

Possesiveness…

Yes, all those who love someone is one time or other possesive about the person they love…possesiveness is the right of us, we have all the rights to get possesive over the person we love..nobody can’t stop us from loving the person we love eventually nobody cant stop us getting possesive..!! eventhough sometimes our possesiveness annoys the very same person we love.!! 

Especially we women get possesive, when the person we love talk to a girl infront of us…thats not only because we are jelous its also because we want our betterhalf to stay away from heart hurting happenings,  we want everything the best for you people…more than that we love you people more than our ownself, we cant cross even a single momment without you guys , moreover there is no relationship in this world more important than you guys…we adore you , care you more than any one in this world and we swear it… 

possesiveness is different from doubting and we swear how can we doubt ourself..So, those who getting annoyed by the possesiveness of your beloved try to understand their love towards you…and all those possesive people over here possesiveness has two sides like a coin a good effect and a bad effect , tosing your coin too much will land your love in trouble … Beware of it..!!!!

Lonliness…

Lonliness is not new to me…its an very old companion of my right from my childhood…i missed this lonliness for quite a long time because of our love… This lonliness is a ride that took me through the paths of good and bad… Mostly this lonliness had always left me with depressions…sameway it had given me new ideas…our love pushed this lonliness far away from me and stopped it from showing its dual-face… But now its again the turn for the lonliness to troll my life…!! How hard our love tried to push it away ,lonliness had place its own thrown in my heart… Can’t help it out sorry SAM…!!